I was struggling with spending time with the Lord today. The holidays are over and it's back to work and daily routine. I have a lot to do and sometimes I fall under the lie that I have so much to do I cant afford time to soak. I was about to fall for that lie today, so I asked for the grace to spend time with Him because I knew I couldn't do it on my own. Well guess what, He graciously gave it. Then when I settled myself down and took time to listen, what He had to say set me free of the anxious way I had been thinking of my very full schedule:
You may have joy today! Enjoy the day! Take some relaxation and let it sink into your soul. Let go of trying to control every minute of how the day goes -- just relax. Enjoy each minute -- when you are eating, enjoy it and think of Me -- when you are on the computer, enjoy it -- thinking I am right there with you. When you are listening to one of your children, look into their eyes and see Me -- feel My love -- let it flow.
You're holding on so tightly to schedules and deadlines as if I weren't there to help you with it all. But I have promised I will. So why hold on so tightly? It doesn't help you reach your goals -- in fact it hinders you, because it causes anxiety -- because you can't control everything around you -- and when you get anxious about it, then you get tired of carrying the weight of all that anxiety and the false burden of having to carry this huge load yourself. And when you get tired, you give up and fall under the weight of it and into a depression. And when you do that, you don't accomplish all you set out to do.
Here is a new way to think about it my friend:
First, remember me. I am the God who bends down to feed you -- who laid His very life down for you -- will I not help you in all the ways you are following Me? will I not help my daughter to accomplish everything I have given her to do? And if you have chosen to do something outside of My will, will I not guide you to make better choices? Everything that I want you to do is do-able with peace and rest in Me.
Call them My schedule and My deadlines. I'll take that responsibility for you. You just look to Me every minute throughout the day -- and I can guide you every moment. Be my Lover Crissy, and lean on My shoulder all day long -- My arm will be around you and I'll gently guide you here and there as you lean lovingly on Me -- loving My embrace -- like two lovers head over heels in love -- giddy with the pure and simple joy of serving one another.